Hollywood star Michelle Williams has spoken about her loss over the tragic death of former boyfriend and father to her five-year-old daughter Matilda, Heath Ledger.
The actor died almost three years ago after an accidental overdose, and Michelle has reflected upon his passing, explaining to Nightline: "In a strange way, I miss that year, because all those possibilities that existed then are gone."
The 30-year-old star who met Heath Ledger - posthumously awarded for an Oscar last year for his role as the Joker in The Dark Knight - on the set of Brokeback Mountain before beginning a three-year relationship, also added that she read The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion to help her cope with her grief.
She continued: "It didn't seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door or could appear behind a bush. It was a year of very magical thinking, and in some ways I'm sad to be moving further and further away from it."
And on trying to make sense of her loss and Matilda's, she said: "I've found meanings around the circumstance, but the actual event itself still doesn't... I can't find a meaning for it. I can find meanings in things and people and relationships that have sprung up, and friendships that have strengthened. I can find a lot of meaning in that, but not in why.
"I know I got kind of obsessed with that for awhile, the before and after. A lot of things died. There's a line from a book that gave me so much comfort and it said, 'When you've truly lost everything, then at least you can become rich in loss.'"
Meanwhile, Michelle's career has flourished and she's just been nominated for a Golden Globe for Best Actress for her performance alongside Ryan Gosling in Blue Valentine.
Speaking about her talent, Gosling gushed: "She's like Brigitte Bardot meets Clint Eastwood. She's like a sexy cowboy or something. Creatively, we are doing it. Creatively."
And when asked if they are at all romantically involved, despite Gosling being linked to Gossip Girl star Blake Lively, he added: "No, we're professionals."
Michelle added: "He looks like he's lying, but he's not!"
She continued: "It didn't seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door or could appear behind a bush. It was a year of very magical thinking, and in some ways I'm sad to be moving further and further away from it."
And on trying to make sense of her loss and Matilda's, she said: "I've found meanings around the circumstance, but the actual event itself still doesn't... I can't find a meaning for it. I can find meanings in things and people and relationships that have sprung up, and friendships that have strengthened. I can find a lot of meaning in that, but not in why.
"I know I got kind of obsessed with that for awhile, the before and after. A lot of things died. There's a line from a book that gave me so much comfort and it said, 'When you've truly lost everything, then at least you can become rich in loss.'"
Meanwhile, Michelle's career has flourished and she's just been nominated for a Golden Globe for Best Actress for her performance alongside Ryan Gosling in Blue Valentine.
Speaking about her talent, Gosling gushed: "She's like Brigitte Bardot meets Clint Eastwood. She's like a sexy cowboy or something. Creatively, we are doing it. Creatively."
And when asked if they are at all romantically involved, despite Gosling being linked to Gossip Girl star Blake Lively, he added: "No, we're professionals."
Michelle added: "He looks like he's lying, but he's not!"
